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Can you believe it! This time next week my little angel will be one! ONE YEAR OLD! Wow, I can't believe it myself. Levi has become my world in so many ways. Levi and David are what happiness is. If you were to look up the word happiness in the Birdie Hass dictionary you would see a picture of those two. I use to think people that had it all like this were pretty damn boring. I'm sorry but I did. I thought it was all about living your life to the fullest with being single and partying all the time. Not to get caught up in that everyday predictable settled-down-life. Don't get me wrong we all have our time and place for that, but there is nothing wrong with what I have now either. It's exciting! I feel thrill to get up every morning and see my son and make him smile. I live for David's sweet kisses and warm hugs. With out those smiles and hugs what is this life to me? Sure I still have my singing career and it's still my passion. I just fill whole now because yes I have it all damn it. Love, successes, happiness, and health.
And god help anyone or anything that tries to take that from me. Hell will be raised ten times over. I love my fucking family. Alex, Mia, David, Tommy, Sean, Tyler, and yes even you Brian.
Fly High,
Birdie
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[21 Jun 2010|09:16am] |
I had a post all ready to go but if I'm going to honest here. I'm having a hard time getting the words out. Being on tour again and with a baby might not have been the brightest idea I ever had. Bringing ones career back to life and trying not to be that typical Hollywood mother where another woman raises my child is proving to kick my ass. I'm not giving up though, I still love my life and everything that comes into it. My family and my second family(you know who you are including the guys), you are my strength even on days when I don't need it. So I thought I would say thank you. For everything! I don't know what is going to happen in the next few days, weeks, months, but whatever happens I'm glad to know you are with me. In that case I know I'm not going anywhere. Even if I did I'm sure Tommy would hunt me down with jelly bellies, wrangle and bring me back.
I'm sorry this was short and I promise epicness next time from me. With that said I'm going to give a little shout out to my big brother ALEX who kicked butt yesterday. I'm proud of you for not bleeding!
I love you guys forever and always,
Birdie AKA~ not Juliet
P.S. Aren't you proud of me. I didn't talk about Levi and his cute little laughing habits.........dang it. Oh well it was adorable.
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[15 May 2010|06:05am] |
So I'm on the cruise for Dave's tour and brought Levi with me seeing how Tommy wouldn't leave me be if I left him behind, and lets face it I wouldn't have come if I did. Seeing how my sister Mia is here and my second family I have kinda abandon my child and every free moment I get alone.....
Well lets just say I'm catching up on some much needed time. So right now while everyone is either sill drunk, passing out, or just waking up I took some time to walk around the deck this morning to watch the sun rise. Sorry I didn't call you Sean. Then I realized that I was ALONE! I couldn't remember the last time I was actually by myself. It was an odd feeling yet I was at peace. It's funny how it takes a moment of being by yourself to realize how truly happy I am. I'm more so then I realized and this was another wake up call. My father once told me you have reach TRUE happiness when you know it can never be taken away. I use to be think how silly, happiness can be taken away in a snap of a finger, but I get it now. No matter what TRUE happiness will never be defeated. And I hope everyone finds there true happiness in life.
So now that I have kidnap my son back and him and David are both sound asleep, I think I will knock out along with them.
And ZU Love! I love you Baby you will do great! KISSES!
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[18 Apr 2010|12:00pm] |
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This is Birdie reporting how awesome Thomas Callahan is! You all call him Tommy but I call him Thomas just like I call Dave, David. I can do anything I want because I am just that fantastic! Okay, maybe I can't do anything I want, but in regard to them I think they make me awesome.
What is there to say now. Things are getting back on track it seems. There will always be a little rough spot in life and you just have to find some way to get over it. Levi is doing great getting so big and he is daddy’s little man. Seven months old now and never stop smiling.
( Yes, another picture of my baby boy. )
I have been helping David with his up coming charity concert. I have never seen him so passionate about something and proud. Well besides his son and it's a joy to be part of something big myself again.
Also did I mention how awesome Sean it. How did I get so lucky with so many special men in my life.
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[03 Mar 2010|12:20am] |
( Just to start you off. )
Thank You
True Love Of My Life
Undying Devotion
Thank You For Your Love
My One True Love
I Thank You
Mi Amor, Mi Vida
Who Makes Me Happy
Love Of My Life
More Than Anything
Words From The Heart
My One
My Truest
Miracles Do Happen
A Truly Wonderful Gift
Thank You
For Being There
For Your Forgiveness
A Ray Of Sunshine
Having Your Love
Thank You, David
You Are So Special
My Gentle Breeze
My Special Someone
Passion
My Heart And Forever
Holding Onto My Prayers
Thank You, David
You-You
My Romieo
So Much To Thank You For
Because Of You
You Are My Home
I am Mother
So Lucky To Have You
How I Feel
Masterpiece Of My Life
Our New Relationship
My Loving Friend
Loving Father to My Son
You're My Everything
Smiles of Pure Sunshine
I'm A Believer
Love Assured
No One Can Take Your Place
My Very Own Angel
After So Much Pain
To My Honey
You're My World
Reason For Living
Thank You
Forever Grateful To You
Now And Forever
The Road We Travel Together
You Don't Have To Say It
Thank You!
Always and Forever
Your Juliet.
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[18 Jan 2010|05:16pm] |
On the 25th of this month Levi will be five months. I don’t know if most of you are getting sick of this or not, but yeah I’m going to talk about Levi. He’s only a baby and he’s my baby. Once you have one you can’t just drop it and go on about your life like you always have. It changes everything. Do I miss parts of my life that I use to have? Sure I do, but I wouldn’t change what I have now to get it back. I will be getting back into singing, but I’m going to do it slowly. As you get older and go on with your life you gain roles in your life. Daughter, Singer, Girlfriend, Lover, and now I’m a Mother. The most important role yet. For right now this is what I’m doing and I’m loving it. I know it’s not the only part of me that is left, I still have the singer in me that is itching to get out and I will. Thanks to Dave for that. Also thanks to him for giving me another role in life, but that is another story that I will not get into.
Now that Levi “Jean“ King Magnus Savage is getting big and he’s starting to develop everything right before us. The other day he sat up for a moment on his own to only fall over. He laid there for a moment wondering what just happen and he tired it again to fall right back over. He laughed at himself which always makes me laugh. He always makes me laugh and I can see already see how he is going to be like me. I do have a skill of laughing at myself and having a sense of humor about almost anything. Then I see parts of Dave in his as well. In his eyes, I’m so glad that he got Dave beautiful blue eyes. I think he looks most like his father, but my mom and dad like to argue that he looks most like me. I have been doing nothing but taking pictures of him every chance I can get. I put a few together, yet I still had to take few out ...okay way more than a few. I have over 500 pictures. Not all me! Dave is an addicted to taking photos of Levi all the time too. OH OH!! Man one picture you will see with Levi laying in the snow. Yeah you can bet I almost castrated Dave over the. I might have did my first time mother freak out on him, but now we can laugh at it.
ENJOY. MORE HERE!!
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I guess when one aspect of your life changes they all have to change. Without your control things will just change even if you don't want them to. I'll admit it hurt and maybe I will get over it when I find a reason why it doesn't matting anymore. Now I find myself missing things and people and there is nothing I can really do about it. I don't know if it the fact that I have a son now that pushes people away or if it's me. Whatever it is I know it's not somewhere I like to be. I fill myself slipping and for what? Just so I can feel like the old me again. Is it even possible to be me again and is that question already answered by others I feel like don't know any more. Right now I want to focus on my son and getting back out there working again. It felt good to sing again for the tree lighting and I'm ready to get out there. Maybe that's just the thing I need to be me again.
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[26 Nov 2009|09:51am] |
-Gabs is hiding like always.
-I really wish Gwyn and Parker would stop talking dirty. I’m going to puke turkey.
-Dylan brought a GIRL to the house! And she is so pretty! I bet he is happy there is more men in this house.
-Mia just got yams down her shirt and why does she keep looking at Parker like that?
-Dave is sitting in the basement with Daddy. I wonder what they are talking about?
-Levi and Brecken are being passed around like dolls.
-Bella is in the kitchen with mama cooking pies and waiting to lick the spoon.
-Evie is kicking ass at connect four.
-And me….I’m just so in love with my family.
I hope my LA family is having just as much fun.
Mel, Zu, Kian, Nate, Peter I’m thinking about you all! My heart is with you!
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[31 Oct 2009|07:08am] |
It’s been five weeks and it’s getting easier to tell the difference from a social smile and well detecting that telltale odor that means it's time for another diaper change. Levi takes my breath away and when he smiled for the first time this week I just about gave in to any over whelming feeling of utter bliss. I swear sometime I wish I could step outside myself and see how sickening happy I am and just puck. I remember looking at people like me and being eeew get a room no one wants to see how googoo happy you are. I would be happy for them of course but something seeing something just that sweet and happy can make your teeth hurt. Though me and Dave tend to be locked up these days with our endless bliss and hording it to ourselves I thought it was time I step out and say HELLO WORLD I’M STILL HERE!
I can fill this whole page up with talking about Levi but I won’t or I won’t having anything to talk about when people ask me what is going on. I can sum it up and it a whole lot of sleep, eating and changing and I don’t just mean Tommy when he comes over. I miss everyone and I’m dying to know what I missed. I swear when I see you all again get ready for a death grip hug like nothing you have ever had. I might hug someone to death really! I watched the awards at home and I have to say I’m so proud of my brother Dylan he is always winning something. I think it’s safe to say he is the true talent in the family. I mean we all have something great but he can do it all, well singing I think he can work on. Plus I have to say it’s good to have Gab back as well she is spitfire of fresh air. Just being with her reminds me of how tough we are and how we DiLuca really never take any shit. I love her so much and I hope she never changes. Gwyn is changing though and I think for the first time in a long time it might stick. She loves Levi like crazy and she great with him. Just seeing her with him I know one day she will make a great mother herself. Now me on the other had I don’t know how I’m doing but I am giving my all and best to him. He’s healthy and from what I can see happy. He has the best smile in the world. I use to think Dave’s smile was the only one that could make me melt but I think his son has him beat.
I’m still writing music as I have a new inspiration that just makes it pour out of me. I swear I’m writing two to three songs a day and I haven’t been on fire like this since I was twenty. If they becomes something on my next album I don’t know. When that is I don’t know. I feel if I think about all that now I might become overwhelmed. I’m a first time mom that is still getting the hang of all this and me rushing off to do another album or finish my tour just might make me crazy…. Or more crazy then I am.
Hopefully I’m not as scary as I was last year….
Hugs and Kisses
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[28 Sep 2009|10:19am] |
I never thought I could be this happy. Thank you to everyone that has sent their best wishes and the flower are beautiful! To everyone that was there to share the joy of the day. I hear it was a real party outside my room all night. I still can't believe that people showed up at the last minute to see me give birth or meet my son. Well not literally see me give birth thank god. Even if Zach was trying to deliver my baby boy. It would have been cool if Mel was my doctor but maybe next time.... wait lets change that. After 25 hours of labor I'm never doing that again. NEVER! It was a really journey he couldn't figure out if he wanted to come or not. At some point the doctor was like hell lets get him out of there already so I can go to bed. Seems like all his decision will me made for him.
Levi is three days old now and so far he is a good baby. He doesn't cry much and look so at peace whenever you see him. There is so much I can say when it come to how Dave is with him, but then what would Dave have to write about. I don't want to take that away from him. All I know is we are both completely in love with our son. I now understand what they mean when it's like a love no other can imagine till you are a mom. To know how much my Mother loves me give me a new appreciation for her and I think this has brought us closer. Dad and I have always been close and I saw him cry for the first time when Levi was born. I thought him and Dave would thrown down when it came to holding Levi. After he was born I looked around the room at all the people that passed him around and held him. My heart was in my throat and I wanted him back but at the same time I saw how blessed he was to have such a big family that loves him including the my none blood family. There was only one person that wasn't there that I wish could have been an he already knows I understand and plus Levi was really early on arrival. Still I feel so lucky to have so many people that care. I felt like I should have been playing the Lion Kings theme song Circle of Life when everyone came into the room to see him.
Evie was suppose to throw the babyshower and it was going to be shared with Nicole. It seems like it's not to late as I talked to her last night. We both would still like to have one. Maybe a post or pre babyshower for those that can make it. It still really all up in the air. I spend most of my time now in the the baby's room just holding him whenever I can get him away from Dave. I have come very accustom to sing him one song. He seems to enjoy it as he did when he was still in my belly.
( Light up your face with gladness. Hide every trace of sadness. Although a tear may be ever so near. That's the time you must keep on trying. Smile, whats the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile if you just smile. )
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[15 Aug 2009|01:19pm] |
I went to my first lamaze class this past week and even though I was alone I'm glad I did go by myself seeing how that class freaked me out and if David would have been with me good lord I think he would have passed out or something. Though I have read up on anything and everything about child birth I'm having the urge to cross my legs and not give in. The breathing I learned helps when I start to freak myself out seeing how I need as much oxygen to go to my brain and realize this is really going to happen. There are only 64 days left and he will be here. Our son who I have yet to name but I can't wait to meet but at the same time I'm so intimated with it all. I have my hopes and fears just like anyone else in this position so I know that's normal. Everything in mind and soul is a rush and no matter what you can't escape, even in my dreams it all there. I can feel it pumping through my blood and alive in my bones. No matter what I know MY life is not over. This is just another shade of my life. A different alive color that is me. I have to a take moment to stop and take a breath and then I smile.
I do miss my boys on tour and I hope they are all doing okay without me. Tyler, Tommy and Sean I have grown to love like my family. They all have contributed in some way to my sanity and I will always be grateful for that. I have everything I can ever ask for when I look at my life. I remember my dad telling me once when you look at your life and you can't ask for something more and know you can die happy then you did everything right in life. It took me a while to get here but I did it. Don't let anyone ever tell you happy endings are only in the movies or books. I can surly tell you they are not and it's not an ending it's a beginning.
To my happy beginning. Kisses
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I'm so tired these days. All I want to do is sleep right now and I just got up. Eat and sleep, eat and sleep, eat and sleep. Mel call me when you get in, I miss you!
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[28 Jun 2009|11:32pm] |
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IT'S ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[14 Jun 2009|09:35pm] |
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HOLLY CRAP DAVID YOU BROKE MY E-MAIL WITH BOY NAMES!!!!!!!!!!
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